I must say, I’m pretty disappointed in myself. After one night, I shouldn’t have let it happen. Although I wasn’t exactly capable of controlling myself, I can’t say I regret it. Now, because of that night, you are all I can think about. It’s quite disappointing knowing that you will be moving to baton rouge soon and you say you aren’t capable of a relationship here. I have really grown some feelings for you. I even told you that you were unlike any other and well, that is kind of the reason why i chose you and no one else. your response was that you felt privileged. I don’t know how I was suppose to take that response, but I took it in a positive way I guess. I wish you would talk to me more though. I was looking forward to seeing you tomorrow night, but so far it looks like it isn’t going to happen anymore. I don’t know how I should react to this. It was all so sudden, I don’t know if I should be happy, angry, sad. I’m so drained of emotion at the moment I can’t even think about anything else but this. Hopefully you speak to me by tomorrow before I go to work.. that would be nice. I wish I had my best friend with me at the moment. I know I’m venting here, but I really need her here. She has never left my side for anything, she has always been there, and right now I need her to tell me everything will be okay even if it really won’t be.